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Hey Melony,
Welcome to the message board and CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR RECOVERY!!!!!  I am so glad you posted here and hope you continue to join us and share your life when you can.  I love the message board because of the number of incredible women (such as yourself) that I get to continue to meet here.  You all add something special to my life and I am always thrilled when someone new joins us and posts something too!  
The same goes for our state as far as meth and the families in the child protection system.  I was also there in 1994 as a result of my addiction and how I placed my children at risk on a daily basis.  It was a much needed help in my life and I am still grateful today that it happened.  
A march on meth......WOW...what a great idea.  Please post again and let us all know how it went.  I think that is incredible.  I will keep you all in my prayers.  Substance abuse has a profound effect not only on the person who is addicted but also on everyone in our path.  I know that the 22 years I drank and used I affected everyone around me in a negative way and I have spent the last 12 years of my life trying to right my wrongs and give back what I've been given.  I have had so many incredible people put in my path who did that for me.  I really am looking forward to hearing more from you.  Thanks so much and talk to you soon.  Your friend in Iowa.  Judy

I will let everyone know how it goes Saturday and I might even take some pictures. One way or another we are going to beat this problem.

     Thanks
           Melony

hello everyone just me thinking of all of you and wanting to say to any one who is trying to get their kids back.KEEP TRYING. it pays i never thought i would matter of fact they told me i wouldn't BUTT i got them back in my house full time this month what a birthday present i've kept my sobierity since my arrest in oct 05 and its paid off much much more than my using days ever did i got my DL back going to school and most importantly i am a active mom off meth. thank you so much judy for thinking of this amazing group. im from waterloo

Way to go sister!!!!!! Thanks so much for sharing that with us!  I LOVED HEARING IT!  I remember hearing from you in the past and actually wonder how you are when I see your name come up on the members list!!!!!  So, it was wonderful to log on and read your post!  I'm so happy for you and your kids.  Check in any time you get a minute and let us know how it's going.  We are all here cheering each other on no matter what!!!!!!  LOVE YA, JUDY

I just read Runts post and I guess I was blessed to never have lost my kids to DFACS. My kids knew that I was using, I just thank God that they have forgiven me for the crap that I put them through. Like runt it took me getting busted to wake up and see what I was doing. I sat in the holding cell thinking about my kids, I had to make a choice at that point, I could see my oldest one graduate from high school or I could hear about it on visitation day or even worse never get to see it or hear about it. I was so ashamed for what happened that I didn't even want to face my kids. I guess I think it would have been easier if the were little, they don't ask as many questions. My oldest 2 kids a 15 and 13, so there was a lot of questions and doubt from them that i would stay clean. But I have been doing it, So I guess thats it. Keep up the good work Runt and I will do the same.

      Melony

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         Thanks for the sight Judy, it feels good to talk to people who have been through the same things I have.

Hey Melony!
Great to hear from you again.  I sure understand where you and Runt both have been.....I've been there and done that too.  Went to jail, lost my kids and pretty much everything I owned (which at that point in my life wasn't much!) and was blessed with enough support in my community (and services too) to get clean and sober and I am thankful.  I have family members who are still struggling with getting and even wanting to be clean and sober and so I try to remember to stay grateful for my life and my past too.  I have had my kids home for over 10 and a half years and thank God that my brother and his wife took him while I was in jail and went through treatment.  They were gone for about nine months and it has taken us a long time to heal in the beginning.  We are a close knit family today and we do lots of things together, share how we feel, what we are frustrated about and also come to lots of solutions together.  I never thought that we would have the life we have today.  Please keep logging on and sharing what is going on with you all when you can.  I love hearing from all of you and it makes me feel better knowing we are all going through this together.  Even though I haven't used or drank anything for about 12 years....I still have life situations that can drive me crazy and today was one of those days.  I am really thankful I logged on and read your post Melony....it's nice to know we are not alone.    I truly wish you the very best.  Your friend in Iowa.  Judy  

Well we did our March last Saturday and it was the most amazing thing I have ever seen, there were over 4,500 people walking . All you could see for the 1.9 miles are white shirts, that the people who orginized the event gave out. There were people for all walks of life, the well off to the not so well off. People of all ages little kids being pulled in strollers to the eldery. I met so many people like us who have gotten clean and are now fighting back against a drug that took so much from them. I think I can safely say that our commuinty is tired of the drugs that have taken over our town, and last Saturday we stood up and said Enough is Enough. I think what scared me though, was as we were standing around wating for the march to start my oldest daughter was pointing out other kids she goes to school with that she knows deals drugs at her school. She felt like they were there mocking what every one else was doing. It made her very angry and me very scared that these kids are playing with this drug that they have know idea can take so much from them. It did give me the chance to ask my daughter if she was friends with any of them, and thank God she said no. I then asked her if any of them had offered anything to her, and then I was scaried again for just a second when she said they had. But then she told ,she went on to tell them what she had exprienced because of drugs and told them that she had plans for her life and using drugs was not one of them, I couldn't have been prouder. Well I guess that about it for now. Stay strong everyone and keep looking a head, becuse there is a bright future out there for all of us.
                                           Melony

Hey Melony!  
What a fantastic march that must have been.  I think it would be so powerful to see all those people out there marching for hope.  I think that even if there were people there who were actively using.......at least they were there and some day when they are ready to quit or get help.......they will know of people in their community who quit and would be supportive of them.  It makes me really sad to watch other people (especially the young) start using anything because I know from experience how devastating active drug and alcohol use can be to not only myself but my family and everyone around me.  But I also know from my  own experience that no one could have stopped me until I was truly sick and tired of it and wanted help.  I had a lot of loving people who wanted to help me and my kids but were not able to stop me.  So, when I see people who are actively using meth I feel sad for them that they have to travel such a hard path.  But, as you said Melony..........there is a LOT OF HOPE!!!  I know so many incredible people in recovery today and lots of people who are never used but are supportive of recovery and are working hard on finding solutions.  I feel blessed by my past and the life I have today.  Thanks so much for sharing your experience Melony.  Your friend, Judy

I was just reading about the Meth March you had in your home town Melony. 4,500 people, that is FREAKIN AMAZING!!! As for your daughter tell her that I am so proud of how she stood up to her friends. I know what it's like to just want to be accepted by your peers so you do stupid things and try even stupider things. I am very proud of her and I wish that every kid out there was as brave as she is. Will you tell her that for me.

Sending out Much Love, Appreciation and ADMIRATION from Alaska, Nicole